I have so many great
excuses reasons for why I’ve not posted in this space in so long.
For why I haven’t presented the promised monthly journal posts.
To explain the just general absence of content and vibe of creativity.
And well, I’m blaming them on one culprit in particular and that’s Facebook.
Okay, first let me say, I have tried this before. You can reminisce with me and very my cocky attitude about leaving Facebook behind over here.
I got prideful and then busy and then caught up and then distracted and then overwhelmed and then the Holy Spirit whispered to me and I was humbled.
Even in this attempt to quit Facebook, I had to get to the root of why it takes up so much of my time and to be quite honest, I care far too much what others think of me. And the battle in my head about my “friends” (at least Instagram calls them “followers”) not really being my friends but their liking of my posts having so much space in my head and heart – it just became too much for me.
So, here’s what I’m doing instead.
Instead of going cold turkey from social media, I’ve logged out of my Facebook account (on every device) and deleted the app from my phone after leaving a very short note with a cute photo. And then I went to my Instagram account and announced there that I was separating myself from the beast that is Facebook.
Then, I took it to a whole ‘nother level…
I spent two hours cleaning up who follows me and who I follow on Instagram.
Looking through both categories, I felt ashamed about the truth of why I had over 900 followers. I just wanted followers to increase the likes – I was jonesing for the the digital approval. And I needed to clean up the number of people that I was following. And it went a little something like this…
If we we don’t speak when in person, if your profile had 4 photos or less, if you are more my child’s friend than my own, you wouldn’t get on a plane to visit me, you haven’t posted in the last 6 months or I just don’t enjoy your feed, then I had to let you go. And let you let me go too.
I will admit, it wasn’t totally painful. And there’s not as much of a need to check Instagram 17 times a day because there are so many less followers to keep up with. There is a proverbial weight being lifted and I’m off to tackle a couple of things that will help me make this transition by replacing the time lost with more reading, more blogging and building in-person relationships.
And there is a lot going on in the relationship arena right now that needs my full attention, my energy.
So, while I move away from the trap of Facebook – pray for me – I am going to take August to rest, reconnect and figure out how to be intentional on Instagram and in this space before considering returning to Facebook, if at all.
I don’t want to get down on myself, but instead I’m going to be extremely grateful for God’s grace as I attempt to find the right rhythm and keep my heart focused on the right, prayerfully best things.
So, with far more humility, I am starting a life without Facebook AGAIN.